well-being

It's About Practice

It's About Practice

It is About Practice

Thank you for following this 9-part journey so far. If you haven’t started from the beginning, you may want to consider starting here.

Today’s post is about how I approach my days now and the first steps in practicing awareness throughout your days.

Instead of my days being full of blame and denial, I open myself to actually looking at my blind spots. Sometimes I am shown through others and sometimes I have the awareness to see it myself. It’s not that we shouldn’t get upset, it’s that we don’t need to justify it.

After a lot of mind-training,

From Victimhood to Freedom

From Victimhood to Freedom

I went from being a victim of the world to accepting a 100% responsibility for all that I was experiencing.

Now, I have heard several authors and speakers say that we repeat situations when we haven’t learned all the lessons that the situation has to offer. Recognizing that I was repeating the pattern of feeling upset after a happy day, I had to ask myself what lessons did I still need to learn? What are the positive teachings of this experience in my life?

Of course, I saw a part of my mind saying "I’m not learning anything from having a bad day.” It was interesting to observe this thought, but I wanted to be really honest with myself. So I got quiet and sincerely asked what I was still learning from experiencing upset and conflict.

What I found

One day up, One day down.

One day up, One day down.

One day up, One day down.

part 2 of 9

I had been with my partner Paulette for two years, and we had gone through a lot of experiences, healings, and journeys together. One day we had such a magical day, where everything was flowing easily and gracefully. I woke up the next morning, and everything was pissing me off. Nothing about the environment was different from the day before- the kitchen was the same, the food was the same, the weather was the same, etc. But I was very upset at everything and anything. Seeing the smallest thing like an unwashed mug in the sink created an explosion of rage within me, and that seemed to affect the whole day. I knew this all too well, that I would hold onto this feeling for the whole day. Everything that crossed my path became the perfect excuse to project all of my upsets.

At some point, Paulette asked me, “Did you notice that every day after a fun and happy day, you seem to get upset? I’ve never seen you happy two days in a row.”

This conversation made me stop and reflect on my life.

The Joys of December

The Joys of December

The month of December for me has always been a symbol of celebration. Growing up, I always looked forward to this time of the year. I recently asked myself, “What about this month is so special and appealing to me?” My memories around this time of the year were always fun with family and close friends. It just felt so good to feel the constant presence of joy in my heart!

Why didn’t I feel that same joy in all the other months of the year?