Worry Keeps Us Away from Joy
part 1 of 9
Looking inward at my life and why I wasn’t experiencing my December joy throughout the year, I found that I was focused on worries in my everyday life. I used to hear people in my family say, "Each day comes with its own calamities". It was as if the tasks of the day came with the feeling that they were actually problems, robbing me of joy and gratitude. Then I noticed phrases creeping in my mind such as, "Everything would be great if not for having to wash all these dirty dishes" or "Everything in my day was going so well until that person looked at me that way." This way of thinking was impregnated with fear and other uncomfortable emotions. I held onto guilt or resentment as a barrier so that I could avoid experiencing those situations again, which ultimately led to me feeling isolated. I was so accustomed to living on the defensive and I felt I was constantly on-edge.
We as humans often live with worry every day! We are occupied with a multitude of hypothetical thoughts of avoiding uncomfortable feelings or seeking to gain what gives us pleasure. Our minds are filled with analyzing who or what will generate pain, conflict or other emotions that we want to avoid or, on the contrary